You know. Always when my sis tells my mum what had happened on school it is bad news. It never is good news. She only tells the bad news. I am not the one that is going to be hurt by hearing those stories. I know her friends a little bit and with who she has problems and I know a lot has been happening to her lately but I don’t want to get hurt because of it. Can I not hear it or something. I wish I just could vanish sometimes so that I don’t need to hear that.
Today I fled to my own room because I didn’t want to hear anymore. I am curious how it ended actually but it only would make me more sad if I knew. I was reading while sitting on the caugh in the afternoon but when my sis I think was on the half of her story maybe even further I just wan’t able to listen more. My mum doesn’t even know that I bother with it that much and I actually want her to know how I feel about hearing all those stories.
Most of the times I am the first one that hears them because I am almost always home when my sis returns from school. I have my own issues to you know but I just bother with them and let them float in my mind or don’t to a thing with them. My sis needs to tell everything times and times again before she can let them go. I know it takes a lot of practise to just let everything you don;t wanna know go away from your mind but don’t tell everything to me that will only makes me more sad.
I do want to help her. I want her to be happy and not to be like grrrrr I had a bad day so now I am sad or something. But I just don’t know how to help her and I do wanna help her… 😦